OH MY GOD!!!!!!

Never thought in my dreams that chamiya will go and propose someone!!!!It came as a big shock to me....and look whom she proposed...the same guy whom she regarded as her brother when his friend went up to her with his proposal...yes i m talking about Mr.V (best thing is that he turned her down...lol)!!!!...hehe!She is a bold girl and no one is unaware of this fact,and everybody knew why she dresses up in this particular fashion,why she talks and walks in the particular CHAMIYAish type of fashion.....ofcourse guys!But she always said that she doesnt wanna have a 'boyfriend' and that she is a girl with 'principles'....where did all these go now????I am not pointing a finger at her but i am merely wondering that why did she put on this fake mask of this very gud girl (though evrybody out there knows wat she is like!) when she is just like any other teenager!?I hate such hypocrisy!!!!I mean have the courage to be what U r!!!I found all this really funny when i heard it,actually anybody who knows both chamiya and Mr.V will find it crazy nad funny!But i really feel sry for this friend of mine who really,very genuinely likes chamiya!(dunno y...he knows what chamiya is like!...but still that moron wont budge!)..whatever happens he will definitely learn about this incident and then he will be heartbroken....but still i'll be happy if he realises now that where he is trying to stick his nose!...The worst will be his reaction...all he'll do is smile or maybe laugh and say...."chodna yaar,as if i care...i knew sumthing of this sort will happen....i dont care for her anymore!!",but i know how painful it'll be for him....afterall he is like a bro to me....i know him more than anyone does and i hope that God will help him out....why is love sooo painful...hmmmppphh!!!

At last....

yes...atlast i've had my haircut!!!I was so damn scared...dint know how it wud look!Throughout i kept chanting to the hairdresser to maintain my length...GOSH...she was fed-up!!!!heehee..but the outcome was nice!I really liked wat she did....nd so did my friends,they were more pleased and happy than i was!!..hehe!!!I have realised that getting ur hair styled isnt a big deal!!!

Thanx shails nd ishu for opening my eyes!!!...lols!!!...love u 2 alot...muaah!!!

can anyone be as confused as i am??????

For me life is really...aarrggghhh!!!I am pretty focused in life...can take up major decisions!!!But why the hell can i not take certain simple decisions??Why the hell do i have to keep running to my friends or to mom for small things...for stupid reasons??.This really pisses me off.Many of my friends come to me for suggestions and i do help them out,but what the hell happens to me when its my chance to solve my own problems?Be it anything,i have to rush to others and thanks to my this attitude that half the world out there knows about my so called PERSONAL LIFE! (though there isn't anything interesting in it..hehe...STILL!!!).As many of my friends say...when it comes to me...i actually m more confused than aaa....dunno!(see...see...CONFUSION!..dunno whose name to write...hehe!).Now i am struggling with the idea of whether to go for a haircut or not!...wow!!!...wat a lovely thing...see..i am confused with this too.....oh god...pls help me out!!!!

PS: I just love this pic.....matches my confused mind...hehe!!!!

god!!!...wats wrong with me.I have actually started writing romantic stuff...cant believe it!..seriously!!...heehee! ;)

I'll wait for u....

Sometimes i feel that my friends are so damn lucky!It must be really gud to be in a relationship.I dont know,as i have never been in one....but atleast by the look of it,impressive!!!But i also wonder that will i be as happy as they are if i get into one??Not sure!Maybe yes....but the only condition is...i shud be with the one i LOVE....not with someone just for the sake of being in a relationship....sounds familiar?...it may..for some people!I just dont understand why people get into a relationship just for the sake of being into one...just cuz their frnds too have their respective partners and that they shudnt look out of place?? Puh-lease!...I personally find it insane and absolute crap!I mean c'mon,its something really good and special to b in a relationship...its meant to be with someone who is special and with whom u r happy!Being happy is the most important thing,if u just go around with someone who u just like and dont love....i doubt one will be happy for lifelong.Many people dont look forward for long relationships...they like it short and sweet....i mean hello!!!!!...wake up!!!...its not a game!Some of my friends find me funny regarding this thought of mine.....i dont care!I will never get into a relationship just for the sake of it....i'll make a commitment only to the person i love.....and i think i have found him and i m still waiting for the moment to come when i can convey my feelings to him.....after that it will be his decision,i wont ask him to make a commitment,i'll just tell him about my feelings!And if he says that he needs some time or that he just not interested...then the only thing i could do is that....

Baby i will wait for u....

cuz i dont know wat i else i can do....

don't tell me i ran out of time....

if it takes rest of my life....

baby i'll wait for u....

if u think i find it just ain't true...

i really need u in my life....

no matter what i have to do...

i'll wait for u.....

love,

neha.