Monday, May 31, 2010

Tag :-D

 This tag I picked from The Rain Crab 's blog. Really liked it so I though I'll do it. You too can, if you want to. Tags are fun :-)

1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.
A) I dont have any scar as such, but yeah I have got hurt plenty of fell down a cycle and broke my head, fell down innumerable times and returned home with bleeding knees and elbows etc. :-p

2. What is on the walls in your room?
A) A calender, two posters, one notice board, and a wall hanging :-)

3. What does your phone look like?
A) It definitely looks pretty and thats why I own it. Its some slider thingy, Nokia 7610 Supernova.

4. What music do you listen to?
A) Anything except for heavy metal. Any song with amazing lyrics does the trick for me. I look for songs with meaning and ofcourse it depends on my mood aswell. Right now I am all obsessed with this one particular bengali song called 'Nirobe Dure', which means 'Faraway in silence'.

5. What is your current desktop picture?
Little self obsessed I am! :-p

6.What do you want more than anything right now?
A) A holiday, a break from everything and everyone I own and know. I think I've mentioned this couple of times. I really really need one break and then start afresh.

7. Do you believe in gay marriage?
A) Whats not there to believe in it? Anyway, yes I do.

8. What time were you born?
A) 7:50 pm, according to the birth certificate and mom.

9. Are your parents still together?
A) Yes :-)

10. What are you listening to?
A)  I am listening to a song ; 'I wish you were here' by Incubus.

11. The last person to make you cry?
A) My bua ji, before they left for Calcutta.

12. What is your favorite perfume/cologne?
A) Davidoff

13. What kind of hair/eye colour do you like on the opposite sex?
A) Black for both hair and eye :-)

14. Do you like pain killers?
A) They do relieve you from pain and thats when one can like them, but then they cause internal bleeding, so I try to avoid them as much as I can.

15. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
A) I am not shy, maybe more egoistic. I know I know it sucks, but I can't help it.

16. Fave pizza topping?
A) As long as it has chicken in it and its not sweet, I am happy!

17. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
A) Ice-cream.

18. Who was the last person you made mad
A) No one!!! But I definitely made someone happy ;-)

19. Is anyone in love with you?
A) To fall in love, there is time. To love, I am already there. :-)
I am not very sure about that someone though. :-p

Sunday, May 30, 2010

When 'They' came to Bombay

They here are my relatives (bua ji and her family) who came to Bombay (from Calcutta) for a vacation. They were here for 15 days and left yesterday night. I did not even realize  when these 15 days passed, it was like you-blink-and-its-over kind of a thing. I am of course missing them, especially my cousins. These few days were both good and bad for me. I, for more than million reasons was extremely  frustrated and mad at my mom, we were at loggerheads almost all the time. And I don't know why, why my relatives have the habit of interfering in every tiny itsy-bitsy piece of my life, to the extent of what film I watch and what food I eat. And of course they need to pass some judgment on everything I do, which is very annoying. I know they love me a lot and so do I, but then I need my space. I am not a kid anymore which they need to understand, and more than them my parents (especially my mom) need (needs) to understand. I understand you, you understand me, and ours will be a happy life! A very happy life indeed! :-)

Anyway, apart from all that it was fun exploring Bombay all over again. We had pretty good time, just that the heat tried to kill the fun, but we anyway did not give up :-p

Yes, they are twins!!!

So, like I said, apart from all the fiction and anger and stuff (which by the way is nothing new! :-p) things were pretty good. Oh, I did not mention this, I am done with college (I dont know whether I should be happy or sad!), I am almost a graduate now. Wow, I feel big :-D

The end to this journey with Sophia is like an end of an era. This is the place to be, I am what I am majorly because of this place :-)

Also, 29.05.2010 will always remain a very special day for me. I wont forget it, atleast for a very very very long time. Still exploring, and I am just loving it :-)

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Saamne yeh kaun ayaa..

''Saamne yeh kaun ayaa dil mein hui hulchul,
Dekh ke bas ek hi jhalak ho gaye hum pagal...'' ;-)

I absolutely love this ad! Raymond ads are always awesome, but this one makes me smile sooooo much every time I watch it! And the guy in the ad (Keith Sequeira) has done the job so so sooooo damn well..!! Raised the standards! Now I want my guy to dance like that! Haha! (No, seriously.)

''Baatein, mulakatein, hum se bhi toh hongee,
Humse khulenge woh aaj nahi toh kal...'' :-p


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Some things that I cannot share

There are some things in life that one simply cant share. Its like whatever you do, how much ever you want you just cannot share them. Not even with your parents, your 'chuddy buddies', your best friend, close friends, favourite cousin or your boyfriend or girlfriend. It just doesnt happen, the sharing just doesnt happen. So some things which I cannot, absolutely cannot share are:

1.BOOKS : Yeah! Be it academic or not, I cannot share my books. In the past I did share textbooks and novels and stuff unwillingly but I did share, gave it to people who wanted to read and all that. But then I never got back my books the way I gave them. People would invariably scribble with 'pen' in my textbooks (dirty handwriting!) and novels and story books would come back to me in a torn and tattered condition and I remember some of them werent even returned to me.
I expect people to handle books with care. Books remain with you forever. They are precious! Yes, I am one of those people who goes 'book-shopping' and I know almost all the 'gali-nukkads' where you can get any book under the sky. ANY BOOK. Right way or wrong way, but you do get! (I am not promoting piracy!).
So whenever I see any tattered or torn or a book in a bad condition my heart cries! It really does. So, I've stopped giving/sharing my books to/with anyone.

2.SHOES : People who know me know how shoe-crazy I am. Every second girl is, but I am just a little too much. I buy shoes first and then go hunting for clothes that might go with them, usually its the other way round. I 'maintain' my shoes. I clean them, dry them, keep them in a box after every wear. Almost all my shoes are kept in a box, except for my regular 'oshos' and 'kolhapuri chappals' haha! Now any shoe-lover will agree with me that such maintenance  is mandatory! So after all this how? How can one even think that I can share my shoes with anyone? Or give it to someone to wear it for a day for a party or for some function or for a date! How? What if she trips and breaks the heel? Or what if she spills something on the shoes? Or what if she walks on a real bad road or mud? I am not paranoid. I just cannot share. And I really find it weird when people agree to share or give their shoes. Weird in a good way, and then something in my mind says ''look! look! why cant you do that!''. But then I am not going to do that, ever!

3.RELATIONSHIPS : Any kind, cannot be shared. I am very specific about relationships. I have this need to know where I stand in people's lives, its like a compulsion. I hate any ambiguity when it comes to relationships. And I cannot, again I will mention, ABSOLUTELY cannot share relationships with anyone else. Its not like if you are my friend then you cannot be friends with others (thats so duh!), but its more like you cannot give the position and importance that I hold in your life to someone else. I may not be your priority, I dont care, but whatever space you have allotted for me in your life, that is exclusive and I am not sharing it with anybody. I will vacate, but not share.
So be it family, friends, classmates, acquaintances, best friend, romantic relationship, anything...I am not going to share.

Thats it. See, I cannot share only three things: books, shoes and relationships. Otherwise you want anything I will give or share but not these three things! I am not a very possessive person, I just like my little space :-)

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Hello there everyone! How are you? Its been quite some days that I havent been blogging (thankgod at this moment its 'days', sometime back it was 'months'!!)

So the annoying reason which kept me away from writing was EXAMS! Yeah, like my friend said before they started ''mazak mazak mein aa hi gaye yeh exams phir se!!'' haha. These exams are such spoilers! And on top of that Mumbai University and its ways, double spoilers. My time table sucked to the core!! And its not like I am done with my exam, I have one more paper left.

29.03.2010 : Practicals
21.04.2010 : Industrial Psychology
22.04.2010 : Cognitive Psychology
26.04.2010 : Counseling
07.05.2010 : Abnormal Psychology
22.05.2010 : Testing and Statistics

I thought graduation will be a cake walk. I realised that its not. Very late, but I did realise!
Another not so good thing that I noticed is that how much ever I study, I dont seem to remember anything before the paper and it drives me maddddd! I mean how will you feel when your mind goes BLANK one day before the paper, and ofcourse revision becomes necessary. And in this case revision means reading the stuff all over again! Damn!!! University exams suck like full on!

Also 24.04.2010 was a good day :-)

Sunday, May 2, 2010


''Lag ja gale ke phir yeh haseen raat ho naa ho...shayad is janam mein phir mulakat ho na ho...''

''You know what Ira, I just want the time to stop. I want to freeze this moment. I just want to lie like this with you, forever.''

''Forever?''. She giggled.

''Yes, forever. Why? You dont want to?''

''Paas aaeeye ke hum nahi aayenge baar baar...
bahe gale mein daal ke, hum ro le zaar zaar...''

''You know, you pass on your message so subtly. It hurts!''

''Do you have light?''

''I dont like when you smoke. Why can you smoke and I cannot?''

''Because I am elder to you and you've got to listen to me.''

''Fuck you!''

Smoking, looking at the dark sky with twinkling stars and lying with that one guy she loved. Ah! Life couldnt have been better. She too wanted to lie like this with him, FOREVER....

Ira met Vikram two years back, when Vikram's family moved into the city. Vikram needed a math tutor, and who better than Ira! She was the best math professor in the city. But she did not prefer giving tutions. But when Vikram approached her, she couldnt refuse. He was young, charming and charismatic. He had her at 'hello'.

They started with the math lessons, everyday, two hours.

He liked her company and so did she. Soon they started spending more time with each other, more than those two hours. Chatting, talking about things in general, politics, novels, philosophy, news, music, art et cetra. They grew fond of each other, came really close to each other. More importantly, understood each other.

''Ira, can I ask you a question?''

''Yea! Sure! Go on..!''

''Where is your husband? I mean I never saw him!''

''You sure didnt, because I dont have any husband.''

''What!! You never got married? Why?''

''Umm..because I never found my man. I had many men in my life, but none worth marrying'', she smiled.

''Yeah, I know. Ira, why do you smoke?''

''You ask too many questions!''

Thunder! Clouds clashed! It started raining. Raining heavily.

''Oh! How much I love rains!! Do you want to go up to the terrace?'' Ira asked Vikram.

''Yeah! I don’t mind. Infact I would love to!!''

Like kids they ran upstairs, opened the terrace door, and then…woohooo!

''I love! I love!! I absolutely love getting drenched in rain!!'' Ira exclaimed.

''And I love seeing you getting drenched in rain..'' Vikram told her, holding her around her waist.

Peals of laughter followed by moments that none could ever forget. Ever!

''Lag ja gale ke phir yeh haseen raat ho naa ho...shayad is janam mein phir mulakat ho na ho...''

Lying there, with a cigarette in hand, smoking, memories came rushing back to her. It has been 9 years now. She looked up at the dark sky, twinkling stars, slight breeze brushing through her face. Everything was just the same, except that she was lying there alone.

She had a card with her, a wedding invitation.


Crushing hopes, teardrop in her eye. She knew this would come, she always knew. But it hurt her this time, crushed her insides this time because she found her man and lost him. And what was the hardest was that she won’t find him again.

''Shayad phir is janam mein mulakat ho na ho...''

Stared back at the dark sky, smoked again.

PS: My first fictional story.