Some things that I cannot share

There are some things in life that one simply cant share. Its like whatever you do, how much ever you want you just cannot share them. Not even with your parents, your 'chuddy buddies', your best friend, close friends, favourite cousin or your boyfriend or girlfriend. It just doesnt happen, the sharing just doesnt happen. So some things which I cannot, absolutely cannot share are:

1.BOOKS : Yeah! Be it academic or not, I cannot share my books. In the past I did share textbooks and novels and stuff unwillingly but I did share, gave it to people who wanted to read and all that. But then I never got back my books the way I gave them. People would invariably scribble with 'pen' in my textbooks (dirty handwriting!) and novels and story books would come back to me in a torn and tattered condition and I remember some of them werent even returned to me.

I expect people to handle books with care. Books remain with you forever. They are precious! Yes, I am one of those people who goes 'book-shopping' and I know almost all the 'gali-nukkads' where you can get any book under the sky. ANY BOOK. Right way or wrong way, but you do get! (I am not promoting piracy!).

So whenever I see any tattered or torn or a book in a bad condition my heart cries! It really does. So, I've stopped giving/sharing my books to/with anyone.

2.SHOES : People who know me know how shoe-crazy I am. Every second girl is, but I am just a little too much. I buy shoes first and then go hunting for clothes that might go with them, usually its the other way round. I 'maintain' my shoes. I clean them, dry them, keep them in a box after every wear. Almost all my shoes are kept in a box, except for my regular 'oshos' and 'kolhapuri chappals' haha! Now any shoe-lover will agree with me that such maintenance  is mandatory! So after all this how? How can one even think that I can share my shoes with anyone? Or give it to someone to wear it for a day for a party or for some function or for a date! How? What if she trips and breaks the heel? Or what if she spills something on the shoes? Or what if she walks on a real bad road or mud? I am not paranoid. I just cannot share. And I really find it weird when people agree to share or give their shoes. Weird in a good way, and then something in my mind says ''look! look! why cant you do that!''. But then I am not going to do that, ever!

3.RELATIONSHIPS : Any kind, cannot be shared. I am very specific about relationships. I have this need to know where I stand in people's lives, its like a compulsion. I hate any ambiguity when it comes to relationships. And I cannot, again I will mention, ABSOLUTELY cannot share relationships with anyone else. Its not like if you are my friend then you cannot be friends with others (thats so duh!), but its more like you cannot give the position and importance that I hold in your life to someone else. I may not be your priority, I dont care, but whatever space you have allotted for me in your life, that is exclusive and I am not sharing it with anybody. I will vacate, but not share.

So be it family, friends, classmates, acquaintances, best friend, romantic relationship, anything...I am not going to share.

Thats it. See, I cannot share only three things: books, shoes and relationships. Otherwise you want anything I will give or share but not these three things! I am not a very possessive person, I just like my little space :-)